December 2008
87 posts
try to get some rest, sweetie.
to ryan, who can’t breathe.
and if you can’t sleep, try out lousie hay (You Can Heal Your Life). the meditation she wrote for shingles turned my deep pain into deep love and really helped soothe the suffering.
it’s definitely the middle of the night. i can’t quite tell what time it is, but it’s getting late in california.
i’ll...
May I be a vessel of peace. May the peace within...
Beautiful things have been happening, sprinkling...
Every moment that I’ve relaxed and had any peace.
The good food. Every meal, really. I’ve been eating really well. And not really that much. This cold - or something - has my appetite low.
The cats keeping me company.
Hot tea.
Heat.
Chris picking me up in the pouring Christmas Eve rain.
The sun being out on Christmas, and ever since, pretty much.
My ride from the airport.
My...
I need help.
What is the course for me?
Am I living outside my means?
Do I have means?
What am I supposed to do tomorrow?
I don’t feel well. I’m tired. My body aches. I’ve been cold. I feel confused. As soon as I got back alone again, I began wondering and sort of worrying. I wonder if I worried myself into sickness?
My health is supposed to be number 1, right? So what does that look...
“To praise is to praise
How one surrenders*”
– Rumi (tr. by Coleman Barks)
* “to the emptiness”
Happy Hanukkah, Merry XMas, and a Happy New year!
Good to hear from you, kid. Been wondering what you’re doing.
I’m in San Rafael, arguing with the cold and damp. It’s a useless argument.
:-)
I feel exhausted right now. Still a little confused about time of day. And I wonder if I can just be around while the women are cleaning tomorrow? I don’t really see why not. All things are possible, Carin. All things.
But Ryan, I...
What am I doing up?
Well it’s the middle of the day and all.
I’m a little bit hungry and confused about what time it is … my laptop says 4:52 which means where I am it’s 2:52, whatever that means. I went for a great walk in the neighborhood on what has turned out to be a gorgeous day. Can I take credit for the weather from yesterday when I sent a text to a friend saying I’d prefer some...
Channukah is the "Yes we can!" holiday
The pitcher-shape of the menorah stating: the miracle looked like this. Light. Standing steadily between two Nutcrackers. It’s sparsely Christmas, like the rest of the house is sparsely anything. What is the vibe here? Is it spiritual? Is it particularly quiet? What I want to know is, where’s the music? One cd - in the car - a Yanni album. I could give it a chance. Cardinology almost...
“I am empty
Like a cloud I am empty
I release my grasp on all I think I...”
– Wisdom Invocation
SAT NAM is the Seed Mantra or Bij Mantra and it is the most widely used in the practice of Kundalini Yoga. Sat means the Truth; Nam means to call upon, name or identify with. Sat Nam means Truth is my identity and I call upon the eternal Truth that resides in all of us. Chanting this mantra awakens the Soul, and more simply means “really”.
What am I doing up?
Trippin out on Love. Love. Love.
Hearing trippy songs on my Hare Krishna station on Pandora.
Feeling a little bit chilly and knowing the temperature is dropping. At least it’s been warm for a few days. And it was CRAZY HOT inside that sweat tonight. I’m so grateful for the opprotunity. For the love. For love buzzing around in a sealed tent of spirits all there for the benefit of all....
Click here and then click on the Obama picture.... →
Havens in my home
I am fully supported by the Universe as I follow...
Cuz I said I'd report back . . .
I’m sitting here in my robe with dye on my head. Wish me luck!
I have dishes in the sink that will get my attention after I write this.
Overall I’ve felt pretty well today. This morning I went to see Francis and though I wanted to complain I knew I was okay. He said, “You’d know if you weren’t okay.” I said I was. Actually, while I was in his office waiting...
What am I doing up?
Well, it’s 9:30 in the morning. I’m up and dressed and sitting on the edge of my couch. It’s cold in the living room. The forecast says Thursday the temp will get up to the mid-70s. Right now it’s 31. That feels cold to me.
I can hear “Evergreen” playing on my alarm clock cd player in my room. This album is so rich. It’s a joy to hear first thing in the...
I'm clear that I need to travel. Yes, beyond San...
My battery is running down and I need to get up anyway. But just wanted to make sure I noted this.
Who wants to admit to their stinkiness? Not me!
Heck, I don’t want to admit that I get bent out of shape. Miss Uber Peaceful. No way! I go insane with some of those I’m closest to. Oooh and then I feel bad. Hey, wait a minute! This is what the Sleepy Zombie Monster is all about!
So what happens is I get bent out of shape. It feels so uncomfortable and so wrong, so not nice, or, God forbid, unenlightened. Even while it’s going...
“For the majority of healthy individuals, this second bout with the chickenpox...”
– I read this on a Chinese medicine website. I LOVE the use of the word triumph. That’s so aligned with the message I first got about my rash: that it was from all the healing I’d been getting and I was detoxing, and that this was an auspicious event. I was told, “Be grateful that...
less pain today
Ry,
This will make you feel better:
http://whatamidoingup.tumblr.com/post/64683809
And you may be interested in this:
http://whatamidoingup.tumblr.com/post/63991810
I was really down and out with major owee, including a lot of back pain, like I was getting kicked from the inside. It turned into a wonderfully spiritual experience. I hope you’re not fighting and you feel better soon.
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