January 2009
86 posts
Easy Hearts to feel heartachy
Oh man. As if I wasn’t already PMS. As if I didn’t just get off of a painful two mintue phone call with my step-mother who hates my guts and to whose home I’m going in about a week. As if I didn’t go to work and find out that all of the shifts that I have on my calendar for the next six weeks have someone else’s name in the master schedule. As if I haven’t been...
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“The mind exists in a state of “not enough” and so is always greedy...”
– The wonderful Eckhart Tolle
I saw something last night.
So I’ve been feeling nervous in what seems like a reaction to how I’m being treated (or not treated) by another person.
I saw last night, beautifully, that having compassion for the other person frees me.
[He] cannot help how he’s being and, in fact, is proabaly asleep - as I am when I’m reacting. Allowing him the freedom to be exactly how he is and allowing the moment to...
I’m finished head-tripping and I’m sleepy and although I may not show discipline in some areas, perhaps not in most, in this one I am. And off to bed I go.
Nothing but love here.
What an interesting and unpredictable and...
It’s 8:15, according to the clock on my computer. I have a slight headache. About two hours ago I was ready to go to bed and thought that was wrong since the clock was in the 6:00 hour. It’s like I want to attach a reason or an excuse - or thought - rather than allow myself to be in the space I’m in.
I lay on my couch watching a video, having committed that I was going to chill...
It was so interesting to observe the reactions!
Wow, I was so reactionary this morning when I read Ryan’s post that the Cards weren’t playing with him anymore after this tour. I wept! I called my friends! I thought about going out on tour!
And after some time I settled down and also observed the major reactions from the masses reblogging his post and writing on Facebook (I didn’t go near the Archive).
Funny how actions...
. . . the strangest thing . . .
In the movie “The Usual Suspects” - in my top 5, by the way - right before McMannus dies, he steps into the scene and says, “the strangest thing,” and then he keels over with some sort of sharp object sticking out of his back.
OMG I sound so dramatic.
But I just like always thought the Cardinals would, like, be there. That we would all be together. What do the rest of the...
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What am I doing up?
Not much. Sitting at my computer with bare feet that are getting kind of cold. The house is quiet now after a warm and enjoyable gathering of our former Mastermind group. In the last year, one of us got engaged. One moved in with her boyfriend. One began working for a company and in a field she’d declared she’d be in. One got out of a field she couldn’t stand and into an...
Fear is the anticipation of punishment.
John
Watching my mind churn.
Boy is it churning this evening. Just like trying to work out every little thing. Jinkies. Shhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.
I declare peace and harmony in and around me at...
Louise Hay affirmation for sinus problems. She says it’s from not tolerating or being irritated with another.
Immerse.
The following is paraphrased from something a wise friend just said to me upon parting:
Slow down. You don’t always have to try to hard. Immerse. Distraction is one way to deal with the voice. Have fun. It’s happening. Have fun.
Yes, I.
How quickly the brilliance flies . . .
I was brushing my teeth and had this brilliant insight and then I came in here and stopped to take a hit and found a People Magazine on the floor and looked at a picture of Suri Cruise and totally lost the thought. I think it was something about getting that there’s nowhere to get.
I dunno.
Overall, a nice day. I hope my lungs are forgiving me.
I intended and asked and indeed prayed that...
“Stop being holy, forget being prudent,
it’ll be a hundred times better...”
– Ursula Le Guin’s translation of Lao Tzu’s Tao Te Ching. Thanks for the loan, Jonathan!
This has been a beautiful day. Why is it that . ....
… discomfort would lead one to mistrust? What I loved so much about the shingles affirmation was that it was, even in its words, calming, and, even more, it opened to trust. When I woke up this morning and was uncomfortable - or thought maybe I was - I wanted to go home. So I blah blah blah and blah blah blah. But shoot, it’s only money. Following God and intuition is what really runs...
This Trip
This has been a weird fucking trip, man. Not that I should be surprised. That’s what happens when one travels, no?
Maybe it’s the time of year.
I’m grateful that the sun has been shining almost every day since Christmas.
Here are some more beautiful things:
Having my menorah and lighting candles.
Having a quiet and comfortable place to come last night and be chill.
Being...
I am loving and welcoming my femininity.
Wow. My computer clock is on Austin time and I can’t believe it’s 5 pm already. I guess this was the day to stay in.
The sun’s shining in Berkeley and it’s a mellow day.
Praise Jah.
