December 2009
25 posts
Unfolding. Always unfolding.
I appreciate Tony Parsons for being a voice I can hear, and one of the things I can hear him say is that there isn’t a better version of me required to get into Heaven, as it were. When I say “to get into Heaven,” I mean right now. I mean liberation. Release from seeking into love. Like that.
This is it.
I’m hearing some cool songs on Pandora tonight & really...
It IS good.
you can know this. There’s nothing else to know.
Merry Christmas and warm love, and gratitude. It’s a blessing to have space and chill. I feel like my consciousness has had a chance to spread out. Would enjoy continued spreading. You got it.
And a car trip where I stop anywhere and everywhere I want.
Thank you.
xoxoxoxox
cc
Eckhart Tolle and Relationships and the...
An Interview with Eckhart Tolle By Kim Eng During my travels, one of the most frequently asked question is “What is it like to be in relationship with an enlightened being?” Why this question? Perhaps they have the idea or image of an ideal relationship, and want to know more about it. Perhaps their mind wants to project itself to a future time when they, too, will be in an ideal...
sometimes I feel insane and I'm sick of that
Moments right up against each other. In one I feel insane, like an asshole. Wrong. And the next I’m feeling the breeze come in the room from the open front door and my state of being is no longer driven by the thoughs, the words (that are flowing out like endless rain into a paper cup that slither while they pass and slip away across the universe).
Then nothing.
But there are times when I...
Tama Kieves: You are the Light of the World,...
I read the following message from Tama Kieves. Thank you, Michelle, for passing it on.
You are the Light of the World: Taking your Pain into Promise Since it’s the holiday season, I wanted to write about “light.” The wisdom tradition of A Course in Miracles teaches us, “I am the light of the world. That is my only function. That is why I am here.” When I first...
what AM i doing up?
and did a mosquito bite my hand? and who is typing? the brain makes it all work, a magnificent machine.
it’s just all happening. the itch on the side of my right pinkie. sensations in the finger. when i stay still with it, it radiates through my hand, almost painfully. and then the fingernails on my other hand scratch it.
there’s some large creature in my roof. i don’t know...
Loneliness wants some place to go.
And grace can come through when there isn’t any place. It is the knocking Rumi points us to. The door opens, and we realize we’ve been knocking from the inside. It wants to come out and open our hearts.
emails about love and loss, living and dying:...
Allison, Thank you for your open message. Yes, there is something running deep here for me. And it surprises me. And the very sweetness that you’re describing is absolutely what’s there for me. This kind of pain is true heartbreak. Are you a Grateful Dead fan? I remember when Jerry died, I was absolutely crushed, for layers upon layers of reasons. It was the truest heartbreak I had...
I felt sad and lonely before Spacewolf died.
I just want to say what's exactly there for once.
I feel lonely as shit. I feel like an asshole. I love my guitar and want more songs to come out of me in an organized way, and I’m glad a song started to come out tonight. I have to express.
The pouring rain sounded kick ass while I played “Across the Universe”.
I still don’t know where that period goes even though I looked up such things today.
I don’t really want...
The Curiosities of Love, Romance and Facebook
An old friend of mine switched his Facebook relationship status from “In a Relationship” to “Single.” He lives in New Zealand. I live in Texas. I commented, “My turn! My turn!” To which his Person-Who-Was-The-One-In-a-Relationship replied, “Carin, dont leave comments like that on facebook, we still live together and still share the same page..bit...
I love with life even when I don't remember it.
In this moment I’m grateful to my Facebook homepage. I just scrolled back through about a month and saw how dialed in I’ve been feeling. Even if I’ve felt somewhat off-kilter more recently, I see what my true state of being is. It’s a joy to see and to be reminded of. We go through cycles and, like I heard about recently, my general happiness level that I return to is good...
What I learned last year from having shingles
From December 9, 2008
Farewell to what no longer serves me, and thank you for your service.
Starting about 10 days ago my system started undergoing a massive detox. I’d say it began with my emotional pressure that appeared to be extended PMS as my cycle stretched itself into a full six weeks. I had moments when I thought my head was going to explode and I began to turn more and more inward. Less...
From this day in Carin Channing history
From December 10, 2008:
List of things I know
1. trust your inner guidance
2. meditate
3. exercise
4. eat well and often from home
5. share food with others
6. dance sets me straight
7. it’s not personal, ever
8. music isn’t either - not even for the artist it comes through - and it’s everybody
9. getting alone really works for me
10. everyone loves to get letters in the mail
Warning Label and Care Instructions, take one
Every time I fall in love — and recover from it — I think I should come with a warning label. And then I forget until I’m swimming in the recovery again. This time, I’m writing it.
Warning: I’m going to fall in love with you. Get close to me, get close enough to kiss me, and you’re just about guaranteed to have a love bug on your hands (in your arms, in your...
it's a weird, weird life.
I’m so intolerant of discomfort. Really. Especially mental/emotional. Yes, yes, allowing it to come is the way through. Yes, yes. I’m grateful for whatever moment it was — I believe it was reading the Women on Fire newsletter that shifted out some tears — that opened me up. Quieted me down. A friend called a little while later and I realized, something had shifted.
My life...
