January 2011
6 posts
2010: we hardly knew ye!
I wasn’t really planning to mull it over, but as the end of the year comes sliding down the hill, some major stuff is popping into my mind. To name a few:
~ Jed McKenna books
~ Stay Open: Spiritual and Self-Care Space
~ The Be Here Now Blog
~ two visits from a Kiwi, reuniting after almost 20 years. I mean, I saw Andrew Marshall again. Finally! Quite amazing. To be continued …
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December 2010
18 posts
Letting Life Live Me
A few nights ago I was startled - nay, terrified - by the activity of some giant critters running around my roof. Probably raccoons, they get between the roof and my ceiling and sound as if they’re in my house, and it scared the crap out of me the other night.
I was thinking, I have to talk with my landlord about this. I felt reluctant to make the call, but I really wanted to get some help...
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YO YO YO YO YO
We’re all looking for permission to be what we already are. My God. Yep. God. Already are. We. Are. God. Already.
Want more passionate Sex? Blissful MIND BLOWING ORGASMS? More money? Yearning&longing for LOVE, INTIMACY/relationship?. Delicious foods? Wine, U love the Buzzzzz? Yoga, meditation, Chanting?Love nature? Mad about singing, dancing, playing music? Everything U do/want is 2 taste ONE taste U ALREADY ARE!! All Pleasure,Passion,Desire,Hunger,Inspiration,Creativity U seek is the deepest urge to...
I feel the end of seeking knocking at my door.
The lines are blurring.
Why *not* go for what soothes you?
I find myself in this space between guilt and flow. Yes, oscillating. I find that there are people and conversations that seem to contribute to the relaxing of my back muscles, the releasing of my breath. And yet I find that I’m both pushed away from and pulled toward those relationships where there seems to be conflict. I feel guilty, like my instinct to stay away is somehow wrong. How...
Don't believe anything I say.
That could be the new title to my blog. Maybe I’ll change it.
I’m realizing that even a conversation about something that happened one second ago is talking about something that doesn’t exist.
Seething
So what?
I want to be defensive and justified and left alone and at the same time accepted and loved and nurtured and comforted.
When I’m seething I can feel my face scowling, my shoulders tighten, my brow furrow. It’s exhausting.
Compounded with my new filling that’s “a little high” so chewing is awkward and a sore jaw from the novocaine and and and and and
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"I love you" doesn't exist
There’s no such thing as “I love you.” Did you hang up on me yet? No? “I love you” is a subject/object statement that is as meaningless as any other thought that arises and passes away. And, look, I say it. Pretty often, in fact. And it isn’t that I don’t mean it when I say it. It’s just that I can see through it, as with anything. In his new book,...
Staying open is not just about staying open during “difficult” times, but also during high times. We can be led around by our thoughts and emotions, convinced that up is good and down is bad, or we can stay open, settle back, ride the waves, and see that there is stillness behind all of it.
I’m thinking of this sweet prayer that says, “Forgive me, Lord, for judging your creation.” That means everything. ♥ We have to stay sweet at home. That is, with these beings through which we are experiencing. This is it.
“Place your burden at the feet of the Lord of the Universe
who accomplishes...”
– Ramana Maharshi